One of my New Year goal is to get myself organized again. I used to be very organized, making lists, budgets, etc. It gave me something concrete to “answer to.” But when my depression got worse a few years ago, all of that went away. I didn’t care. Things started to not get done around the house, bills were missed and payments were late, and stress went up.
I realized that my stress level has been extremely high and it’s not helping me overcome this darkness. So the first thing I did was every weekend I made a To-Do list for the weekend. I had to at least do one thing on the list. It’s good to start slow and then if you manage to do more it’s a major thumbs up, right!! If I end up doing something that wasn’t on the list, I add it to the list just so I can put a line through it. Don’t start with huge projects, maybe a step or two in the project.
I write events on the calendar, so I can prepare myself for going and not over scheduling myself. I also have a tendency to forget appointments. I missed 2 of my therapy appointments because I wasn’t writing things down. I felt so awful wasting people’s time like that. So I have the calendar in my phone as well as a wall calendar and a planner in my purse. Overkill…yes, but it’s a step for me.
When I go grocery shopping, I have a list. I was going shopping and forgetting the main things I was going to get and then I had to go back. So a list is a must. For errands, I have a list and I organize it in the order of where I need to go. Makes my whole trip more efficient.
Then I tackled my budget. I made sure I entered everything that needs to be paid, the due dates of each. Then for my utilities, I made each month’s payments the same. This way yes I overpay some months, but it all evens out and keeps everything steady. No surprises. That’s my goal.
This is the same theory to use with my daily events. Just keeping a steady routine. Wake up at the same time each day, same morning routine, exercise at the same time on the same days, etc. I think the brain wants patterns, they are easier to process. Once you get a routine, you don’t even have to think about it, which frees the brain up to think about other things, or nothing at all.
For 2019, lists, budgets, routines. Those are my goals. Just one more step to Fight the Darkness.