As a divorced person, I am starting to date again. I basically took 3 years away from that scene when the love of my life passed from Cancer. It devastated me. Now I know why in centuries past people dressed in black and remained in mourning for at least a year.
But I know I do not want to be alone for the rest of my life. My kids are now out of high school and will be moving on with their lives. So I decided that it was time to take care of me. At my age, meeting people is the probably most difficult step. Everyone has their own baggage, it finding someone who has already unpacked and did the laundry…so to speak. It’s hard to move forward when you are tied to the past.
Then I have to decide when I bring up the subject of fighting depression. Should I bring it up on the first date, so if they freak out I’m not as invested? Should I wait a bit until I know if the relationship might work out? What if I have a bad day and want to break a date? Maybe if I actually meet a nice guy, I won’t want to break a date…hmm…
I know I won’t find a duplicate of my love, but a few of the traits would be great! Random texts during the day or night. Tough on the outside but tender on the inside. Generous. Not afraid to show affection. Great sense of humor…I love to laugh!
We’ll see how this goes. I’ve had 3 dates with a man now that I feel I could spend a great deal of time with without wanting to kill him (not literally of course.) Don’t want to be blogging from prison!!
I just know I don’t want to stay in the darkness any longer. Help me Fight the Darkness.